My youngest daughter Disney has a cold, so lately, she’s been waking up every hour (at least). So my sleep has been totally interrupted, which, for a person like me, is not good. I’m barely functioning. My body aches, my head pounds, I have no attention span, no patience with anybody, and I’ve been very grumpy – the fact that I’m admitting it says a lot :). It’s been difficult for me to find joy in things lately, just because I’m so tired, and the thought of retiring to my bed at night now fills me with dread because of the ‘night terrors’ – waking to my daughter’s screams and demands. Even if I don’t wake up, I can still hear them in my sleep, and it’s causing chaos in other aspects of my life. I’m barely even looking forward to this business trip we’re taking this weekend to New Jersey. A few weeks ago, before this all started happening, I was ecstatic about this trip because it’s right next to New York City and I’ve never been there. Not only that, but we’re planning on stopping at TWO zoos on the way there, which as you might know, would normally put me over the moon with excitement. But now I’m just worried about getting there in one piece. My husband is the one who is actually crawling out of bed with our daughter; he is the slave to her every demand. So if I feel this bad, is he going to feel well enough to get us through the 10-hour drive and back safely? He assures me he is, but I don’t know; I just feel SO crappy all the time!
Anyway, to help try to regulate my sleep until this passes, I’ve been taking the diet supplement Melotonin. It’s been providing me with some calm before I fall asleep; I used to lay there for about 30 minutes at least with a pounding heart and tense muscles before I could fall asleep, just waiting to hear my daughter’s screams. But the Melotonin is helping me calm down a little bit, and hopefully it will make my bedroom feel less like a prison and more like the restful haven I was used to. One side effect of the Melotonin I’ve noticed is that it’s given me VERY vivid dreams. The other night, I dreamt that my mom gave us these yogurt containers all stacked in rows that spelled out some sort of life advice. You know how they print stuff on product containers? Well, she had collected different flavors of yogurt that said different things and stacked them all up until they made a few sentences of wisdom. It was a gift for something; we got to read the advice and then keep all the yogurt. I wish I could remember the life advice they spelled out, but I don’t. And after she gave us the gifts of yogurt, we found out that she and my friend Megan had been awarded shared custody of one of my daughter’s friends whose parents were getting divorced and didn’t want her anymore. That was random… but aren’t dreams always that way? Here’s to hoping our family’s sleep can regulate in the near future. I’m taking Disney to the doctor on Thursday – I’m at the end of my rope. Luckily our pediatrician is also a sleep expert, so maybe he can help. I have so much going on right now that it would be SO great to be able to actually enjoy it!
You are welcome for all the yogart, I think. What a strange dream. I hope Disney feels better soon and you get back to normal (if there is such a thing as normal with 4 kids).
A trip, eh? Well I hope you and Dis can get some sleep so you can have fun. When will you return? Looks like spring break would have been a bad time for me to come over anyway!
“A Blessing on Your Head… Mazel tov, Mazel tov.” Sorry… couldn’t resist. The title made me flash back to Tevye’s Dream Sequence. But hope you and everyone else get some much needed rest.